Week 9 - Midway formative presentations

I think that I have not prepared very well or this presentation... and I think my tutors though the same too. due to lack of time management skills, I have postponed the presentation until the night before and then spent all night working on it, but I could not explain very well what i was trying to achieve. This has made me extremely stressed and emotional, and when I saw myself in front of everyone at the presentation I panicked a bit and almost cried.... It was very embarrassing. When it comes to the feedback, I don't really know how I should have interpreted it as I wasn't in my best emotional state at the time due to sleep deprivation. But what conclusion I got out of it is that I was indeed trying to tackle too much and therefore wasting my potential of creating great work, missing the opportunity to take on a more conceptual approach. Although I have made clear that I was doing an industry-based project, I don't think this convinced the tutors. I was feeling very upset after the presentation although Sharon has been very supportive and nice to me, but I was feeling upset because I knew I could do better but I just wanted to experiment something different from what I have done in the previous uni years. I wanted to see how it is to create social media content and youtube videos that I always thought I couldn't do. For me, this was like stepping out of my comfort zone, and the feedback just reinforced my worries that maybe what I am doing is not good... I have to admit that although I am grateful for it because it has pushed me to do way better in the future shoots I had, I was feeling very disappointed by me after it and lost much of my motivation to continue doing what I already started. Hence the decline in instagram posts... and my decision to not edit and post my youtube tutorial that I have filmed. I just thought of it like it was useless crap. And I am still trying to think of it like it is not, because in the other tutorial session I had with Kat, she was encouraging and she loved what I did, which really gave a boost to my confidence.